Kiki's Diary

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Here you will find my personal online journal, intended for contemplation and exploration of all sorts of different matter. It will also serve as a reference point, a place for research and one to gain insight about my journey.

Enjoy the process…

Magic Wand

How can we go through this busy life with some help at moment in time? I have been practicing yoga since 2004. And have been teaching yoga since 2009. I traveled and went to many many workshops and meditation centers but I found it difficult to find something that can assist me with little crazy Kiki when that moment of craziness arrives. And not until I started to work with my breath that I have found my unique ingredient. Pranayama is what I would practice regularly and that would keep my stability. But then I would get off the track or something out of ordinary would happen in my life and I would be out of balance again. And this is when I thought I needed this breath to be able to practice in the moment of craziness but only focusing on the breath would not work as much in those crazy moments. This is when rib cage breathing came to me as an old friend. 

Rib cage breathing. 

While inhaling, your diaphragm contracts and moves downward. This increases the space in your chest cavity, and your lungs expand into it. The muscles between your ribs also help enlarge the chest cavity. Your heart gets more supply. Your whole body gets more breathing space. 

To start, bring your hands to your ribs and take longer breaths, both inhale and exhale being the same length. Make sure you do not go into totality of the full capacity as this will bring tensity. And if at any point you feel discomfort come back to your natural flow of the breath. Goal is not to have your shoulders moving while you breathe to your rib cage. 

This I found works as a magic wand to me. Now after some time of practice, I engage in this whenever I possibly can. Especially when my little daughter starts screaming, throwing tantrums or just needing Me and I feel crazy Kiki is crawling into me. It feels to me as if I am channelising all that tension and bringing some new supply to myself and automatically to my daughter. I feel I am here in the moment of Now, and she feels that, and because my body is not taking in this unbearable tension but it is channelising. Releasing. 

In the evening or whenever time allows, I lie on my back and bring my hand to my heart and my lower abdominal. To feel my heart. To channel these feel good energy to my core. Connecting my heart to my core of myself. 

Happy breathing friends and send me questions if you have any or if you want to just talk about it or share your own experiences and progress.

I apply this everywhere. In the shop when a crazy lady is crazy to me, when I need something done and I do not feel it, when Tara needs me, when I feel the lower me is about to come out, when I drive…….It is that simple and free and available to you all the time. The trick between this and just breathing, that I have heard so many times, is that I feel ribs expanding and that’s what tunes me in and gives me a deeper feeling. 

Sending you love 



Self Love in Motherhood

Self Love = Self Care

That’s the start. But how do we start and from where? Especially when we have a child and our time is super consumed in general. We need to be present. We need to be well. We need to also be human and show whatever is within us so that our child feels our core. To get to know us. 

So much literature is out there witten on this subject. So many people talk about it. SO many philosophies. But when I was/am really down all this feels just like a bunch of crap in my mind at that moment. I tried all the stuff suggested in the books and none of it worked for me because my head is too strong and forceful. It puts all the shit in my head racing and making stories, and at some point those stories become my reality. And before I know it I am feeling down and nothing makes sense any more. But then there is my little star still wanting and needing. Me. Needing and wanting me. It’s not about what you give to your child to eat or where do you take them but what energy, what state are you in.That is what they feed on. That is what they build their blocks with. All of the rest is secondary. 

So how do you do it? What do you do? I realised that I can pretend, but somehow my child is not ok. Because underneath and all I am Not Ok. So how do I love myself if I have these stories that are racing in my head and makes stories where I pick up hate. How?! And I need it NOW.

I found that the start is by feeling myself. Feeling where I feel it in my body. But mostly how is my heart. Is it beating fast, is it beating slowly, or is it beating at all?! Is there a pain, can I feel that pain, I put my hand on my heart and I breathe as I feel is the best I can breath in that particular moment. If tears come down my face, they are welcomed. Anything that comes to me I just stay with that heart beat. Tuning into the beat. Into that beat as it is. And listen. Feel. Without judging or labeling. In other words, when that crazy mind comes again and gives me stories I get back to my heartbeat. If possible feel the breath that comes with it. Hand on the heart helps with the feeling. If I know I can take a few minutes I put an alarm on my phone for 5 minutes. Because otherwise 1 minute can feel like an hour.But knowing that alarm will remind me when the time is up, it brings more grounding into the process. If I don’t have the time, and my little precious daughter is here, we do it together. It teaches her how to feel herself. 

This simple little practice was my start of developing self love. Because I started to feel myself. Heart is the center of our love. Our Love. The center of yourself. What are we made of and how much we can give and feel, all lies in our heart. And we are all different in our social and family backgrounds. But what we feel and what we can give is precious in our own special way. Feeling yourself is a start to loving, accepting and providing what you need. Not what some books and some philosophy say. It is individual and it contains no artificial ingredients. It is unique to You. 

This is not a special magic wand and it will not happen overnight. Give yourself time. Feel yourself every day, every moment that is available to you. And slowly get into the layers and feelings of that heart of yours. And when the time arrives, ask yourself, What do I need now? And self care will slowly start in your own unique way, the way that is only applicable to you. And within that self love will start to evolve, grow, and get some direction.

With love from my heart to yours




The probiotic in Kombucha can help with a healthy gut. It is a fermented tea that has been drank for thousands of years but became popular in the last few. Fermented foods like kombucha can assist with the digestive system and boost your immune function. 

I am writing this blog because few of my friends asked me how to make it, and this will be easier to pass on. 

I absolutely love kombucha! As my daughter says, njamy njamy. It is slightly bubbly with a savory taste and you can add the flavour with your favorite fruits. Kids should not drink more than 1-2 dcl a day, I would say over 2 years of age. And adults not more than 3 dcl a day. However, I can say that I drink at least 4 dcl a day and all is peachy. I love the taste and I feel it really gives me that tiny bit of euphoria. That being said, this would not happen to one whose body is consuming much alcohol, coffee and other alternatives for the highs. 

I used to buy them but now making my own tastes and feels even better. And the ritual of making it makes me proud and super happy. I found with white tea to have a gentle easy taste. Kombucha with sacha green tea has a stronger taste but in a nice gentle way. My favourite fruit to put in are berries.

The secret process given by my dear teacher.

  • 1 teaspoon of white tea or sacha green tea.
  • 2 tablespoon of white sugar.
  • Poor 2 litres of boiled water over that.
  • Place it into a glass container and leave it overnight. Do not put scoby into this.
  • In the morning, drain the tea and put scoby in. Cover it with cloth so it has some breathing space and leave it for 10 days in room temperature.

After 10 days, in a glass bottle (I got mine in IKEA for €2.95), put a few bits of your favourite fruits and put in the liquid. Drain it, do not put scoby into the bottle, but start your 2nd batch. 

Leave it for 10 days on room temperature. And viola! Open gently because it comes out as a bubbly champagne.

After some time, scoby will grow, and so will your batch and stronger taste of kombucha. The longer you leave it the fuller the taste. I cannot wait for mine to grow to make many more.

Happy gut happy You xo




Golden Milk

Ok, I’ve been using this once again regularly now and it Really does work! It’s super easy to make, it’s tasty, it’s cheap and it’s a natural remedy for those sneeze down feeling games! Few important tricks must be applied to get the full benefits.

Coconut oil is added for absorption, black pepper to activate turmeric but adding honey only on cooled milk as it can be poisoned otherwise. This all smart talk is from Ayurveda principals.         

Why do you want to use this?

  • Supports digestion
  • Anti Inflammatory
  • Strengthens immune function
  • Helps in maintaining cholesterol levels
  • Digestive tract
  • Regulates high blood pressure
  • Memory and brain function
  • Triglyceride reduction
  • Neurological disorders
  • Detoxifies liver, and even possibly offers protection from some types of cancer
  • maximizes the natural antioxidant power of turmeric because it is a) hot and b) combined with other beneficial spices and a little bit of fat.

How to make it:

Paste (you make this once and you can keep it in the fridge for months)

  • ¼ cup turmeric
  • ½ teaspoon pepper
  • ½ cup filtered water

Bring it to boil on high heat and mix constantly until paste is formed

  • Add 1 tablespoon of coconut oil

Keep it refrigerated in a glass jar. It can be stored for months.

Golden Milk (1 dcl max.) for one serving

  • 1 cup of milk of your choice (coconut or cashew is my favorite; its sweet taste gives a nice flavour)

    Heat up the milk the add

  • 1 teaspoon of Paste
  • + optional: ginger and cayenne pepper and cinnamon ~ this will aid digestion and produce heat in the body.

Let it cool down then add teaspoon of honey (do NOT put honey in hot milk) or you can add some other sweetener of your choice maple or agave syrup

Turmeric can have contraindications with certain medicines so make sure you contact your doctor if you’re on some long term medication.


The Magic of teaching


Why do I like to teach yoga?

Your body and mind meet in the concentration of doing a yoga pose; you experience clarity, focusing your attention, muscles, bones, and breath towards experiencing the particular pose. Again and again, as you approach each pose, this capability to meet each sensation with awareness increases. This experience of harmony of body and mind then transfers to your everyday life; you are more alert to the beauty and wonder of life that has always been right before your eyes and in fact, available to all your senses.

This is the magic of Yoga.

When you feel, as a teacher, that this magic is possible to give someone as a gift it gives a sense of purpose in this world. Once one accepts this magic and moves forward with the practice, body and mind takes a different shape. Mind is more receptive, focused and giving. Body is more flexible, healthier and glowing. As a teacher you are a witness of this process. A witness of someone who is meeting her/his own glitter. Her/his own power, and ability to bloom to its own potential.

Yoga is the union. When I teach I feel I am contributing to the individual unity of building that connection. When one practice and observes the teacher’s’ instructions, the teacher and the student are in uniquely combined unity that is fully understandable to the teacher and student only. As a teacher I also grow and learn about myself in my approach and inner strength to develop and give. While a student learns about her/his individual inner goal. It’s a wonderful dance that keeps on growing and moving and nourishing. I cannot imagine a better engagement in this earthy living.

I hope to see you on the math and share this magic with you

Love & gratitude

Kiki @kikigyoga



Yoga and Sleep


Some say that yoga can help to improve sleep, and depression and anxiety share a deep and difficult connection.

For me, with yoga I boost relaxation and I beat insomnia by soothing my mind and body before bedtime. If you can’t seem to sleep enough, yoga can help. Regular yoga practice is known to cure several ailments, including insomnia or abnormal sleeping habits.

Yoga is a spiritual, mental, and physical practice that’s been around for centuries. I believe that yoga is for your mental and physical health. It connects you to your breath, the connection calms the mind as it redirects the point of focus, yoga practice opens the cardiovascular system and so it delivers nutrients and oxygen to all cells in the body. Your body’s circulation system is responsible for sending blood, oxygen, and nutrients throughout your body and mind. Yoga opens it up throughout which assists with accessing the better sleeping pattern.


I would ease into a restful night with a quiet yoga practice focused on deep breathing to calm my mind and release physical tension. The combination of breath and movement activates parasympathetic nervous system, which helps counteract stress. Many of the versions of the poses encourage relaxation around the eyes and additional smoothing of the nervous system.

Many people are suffering from sleep problems. If you are someone who has trouble sleeping, scientists recommend trying yoga.The great thing about yoga is there are very few limitations to start, and various ways to gain benefits.

It’s a good idea to work with an instructor if you’re just starting out. They work wonders on keeping you in the moment and stopping you from being so hard on yourself.

Love & graditude

Kiki @kikigyoga